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Daily writing prompt
Describe a random encounter with a stranger that stuck out positively to you.

I’m guilty of attempting to start conversations with many strangers in public, notably female strangers.

I apologize for not being chad enough to be able to pull women.

I remember I was at the automated checkout, and I was trying to go between an asian couple who were at opposite registers, and the hot lady wasn’t looking where she was going, and walked into me, trying to get to her husband. How embarrassing for her, to bump into a sub-five, overweight man.

When I was 100kg, I started a conversation with a japanese lady by saying ‘excuse me, do all the trains go back into the city?’ And so I found out where she was from, and spoke a little japanese to her. I was still a sub five back then, in 2017.

I apologize for being ugly. I apologize for having a sex drive. I apologize for existing. I apologize for being a man.

On solipsism

Solipsism is a complex belief I don’t know much about. But basically, I am sometimes a solipsist, because I believe that, as my inner reality is, so is my outer reality.

I believe, because I violated my vow of celibacy to God when I became mentally ill, I have been living in a form of hell. But to escape hell, I must endure every bad thing with all humility, thanking God for the trial.

I read about a monk and a nun in the Carmelite order who got married. I was so happy for them. I’d love to marry a nun. But I’m just plain ugly, so nobody wants to marry me.

As David Goggins once said, nobody is coming to save me.

Cringe

I read about post stealing on a friend’s blog, and I thought ‘well, I wish I was popular enough for people to want to post steal from me.’ But I guess my blogs are just cringe. I am so cringe.

My blogs are so cringe that nobody wants to post steal from me. I don’t really understand how it works. My blogs must be pretty boring. Maybe it is just because I’m an incel lol.

Anyway, keep up the good work, my fans. You are all awesome. Plus, it takes only the literacy of a year 8 student to write my blogs. Lol.

God bless everybody. Iakovos out.

Ugly desu ka?

Hai ugly desu. It means ‘am I ugly?’ The million dollar answer is ‘Yes, I am ugly.’

I was walking behind a good looking asian lady on the way to the petrol station. After I had bought items from the petrol station, I went and said to her ‘pardon me’ and she let me sit down, then she got up.

I said to her ‘thanks for giving me a seat.’ She said ‘u r alright.’ But she didn’t ask me any questions. I have a feeling she was going on the bus to meet with her boyfriend (a chad) and didn’t want to talk to another guy.

I take risks in meeting female strangers because I am schizoaffective, meaning I have a bipolar component to my schizophrenia.

I sat outside the Greek church for nearly 2 hours. No single women wanted to talk to me, so I just left. I must look really low-value.

Ugly desu ka? Yes, indeed I am. God bless you for thinking thus.

YouTube success (lack of)

I was looking up amateur youtubers that I’m subscribed to. Based on how many total views they had, I’d deduce the more good looking the youtuber, the more views they’d get. Boy, sex sells.

https://youtube.com/shorts/TQABam92R-8?feature=share

This is a video of me before I gained too much weight. I might of been 117kg in this video instead of 123kg. Boy am I fat.

As I was perusing youtubers who were my friends, I found out some statistics. I, as an unattractive male, got 1 500 total views. The least lovely lady got 9 000 views. The next ranked lady got 30 000 views. The best looking lady got 1 600 000 views. Maybe I should get liposuction and a sex change LOL.

Here’s to all my friends who are incels or voluntary celibates and ugly.